this is finally sinking in, a week later
I still can’t believe I heard it.
I think my birth control pills are giving me candida problems. No, not ‘down there’. That’s just about the only place it isn’t bothering me, thankyouverymuch. But it’s a problem just about everywhere else, and I’ve read that candida can even cause depression and all sorts of other cumulatively debilitating and serious maladies. We have a propensity to this problem, and its darker side, diabetes, in my family. We luvs our sugar and carbs. And on top of that, birth control pills are famous for suppressing immunity.
So I talked to my husband about this, and other problems allegedly caused by birth control pills and– he’s okay with natural family planning.
WHAT?
Maybe the tears are what got him, I don’t know.
Natural family planning fails. It fails all the time. It’s what got my sister in law (with beautiful results, it is true, but it was totally a life change she hadn’t planned on). You may can get away with it for quite some time, but not forever.
He’s okay with that!
This is what precipitated the eight things I want to accomplish in the next year post. Because if a natural family planning failure is okay with him that would add sooo much complexity that I couldn’t possibly accomplish some of the other things. At least, a trip to China with my existing baby would be out of the question. The other things might be doable… in fact they may actually lend themselves to being combined with a pregnancy.
Well… I’m going to try to remain centered and intentional. By that I mean, I’m just going to try to stick with my life rather than abdicating and letting chance fix it for me, as it did with my pregnancy with shaky baby. And oooohhh what a fix! She’s the most beautiful little moon fish rainbaby child ever. But intention is what my life is supposed to be about these days.
I’ll keep you posted. No, I won’t, because probably it’s too much information. Just the thought of, er, having a family is pretty squeamish territory. Well just assume that no news is, um, no news, that I’m trucking away trying to accomplish financial and educational goals– and actually believing my husband said this– I’m trying not to get too excited about it, for fear he’ll take it back– before having another one.
